You say I'm your sanity but you call me a psycho. Even in the name of fun, it hurts. I'm not a psycho, I'm just slowly losing my mind. You calling me a psycho doesn't help in slowing down the process.

You say I've got problems with controlling my anger like I've sinned grievously. You say it will jeopardise not just our relationship but also me, but you're not helping, you're not supporting. You're tearing me down bit by bit and you don't see it. You point it out whenever I get angry, no matter what I do. So I'm not allowed to feel?

You say I'm always doing things with others except you. I DO ask you to go out with me or watch a movie with me, but you're always saying it's a waste of time or it's not worth the money to spend. Then you don't like it when I do what I want to do with others.

You say I'm more inclined to do what others tell me (e.g. watch shows). I try to watch all the stuff you do, just so you can talk to me about them. When I tell you to read my favourite book, you're not moved enough to read it, simply because I can't explain it well. Then I can't talk to you about the book. You're so stubborn you'll only read from the 2 authors you like. So what am I? You can share your thoughts with me, but I can't, because you're not there. I'm like a ragdoll to you. It's so hard to watch the shows you ask me to, because you'll ask me about it and if I take too long to reply, you'll say I'm not watching the show properly.

It's fine for you to take eons to reply my messages but when I take really long to reply, it means there's something wrong.

It's fine for you to be really comfortable here, calling my psycho and saying I have anger management problems. The moment I say something wrong, you shut me out. Surprisingly I am just like the world, you don't tell me anything. You just toss it out of the window and tell me you've forgotten. Great, so I'm left to figure out what I did wrong and if I repeat again, then it means I'm stupid.

I'm not like you, I've been broken into smaller shards than you. I don't know how to function properly with humans, my EQ is built from IQ.

Maybe I am a psycho. Watch me lose myself. I've had enough of double standards.