It's 1 in the morning now and my stomach's making weird noises. I should be asleep now because I have class at 12nn later. But what do I do when I feel like I'm constantly letting the most important person to me down? If there's anyone who should be most aware of how emotionally unhealthy I am, it should be me. I don't want to repeat the same mistake. It will be too much for my heart to take.

It's 1 in the morning now and it's getting a little hard to breathe. I should be asleep now because there's just about 8 good hours of rest if I go now. But what do I do when it feels like there's nothing I can do to better the situation? This is my second mistake. How can I sleep when I know it's my fault? I'm not perfect, that's where I've gone wrong. I sell myself as perfect, so if I perform any less, it's my fault for the mistake.

It's 1 in the morning now and I can't feel my heart. I should be asleep now because it's way past bedtime. But what do I do when I know things could change in the blink of an eye? I'm not going to make this out alive. There's nothing left in this world for me. There's nothing in this world at all. There's nothing for me when I die too. What can I do?

The worst kind of lies are the ones we tell ourselves before we go to sleep.